Work, Fear, and Hope

SO...Jess here... I know this sounds kind of petty because hey...I have a job... But... When I'm at the job, I feel like the walls are crushing in. The management has become almost unbearable. Its almost like no one there cares. Heather's so amazing throughout everything. She's going through so much right now and for her to give me such unyielding support is amazing. She is always here for me with open arms. No matter what she's been dealt that day, she's always here to listen to me vent, and cry about my petty problems. I feel horrible because I feel like I'm only adding to her stress. She's soo strong to be going through everything life throws at her and yet not get mad at me for freaking out about the little petty work shit that I'm dealing with. I'm scared that...well...I'm scared of a lot of things. I know in my heart that everything will work out perfectly. Its just getting there you know? I mean.....Am I a horrible wife for being scared? For wanting to help Heather in anyway possible, I just... I think that I'm horrible because I feel like I can't do anything to help. I have started looking for a new job and I hope I'll be happier. I finished reading one of my research books to further our "getting our ducks in a row" theme that Heather and I are pretty consistent on. The book was mainly saying that communication was the key to having a well rounded, well adjusted child from LGBT family. I think that Heather and my communication levels (we talk about EVERYTHING...from our goals to our fears to ...just everything) will only help our child to be well adjusted. I hope that our child will know that we love and support her or him with absolute ness. We just want them to be happy and healthy. Other than those two things, we really don't care if they are LGBT or Hetero or anything. Yes, there will be challenges, but what would life be without challenges? It'll be all good! I'm so excited. But ....that's a secret...well..sorta. Lol. I have high hopes. I know it will all work out!

Well, I am off to go eat breakfast with my wonderful Wife! YAY lasagna!

Most of all... My love for my wife grows everyday and you are my world!

I love you Heather!

Jess signing out.