In The Beginning

So...To fully capture our mindset, and our story, Heather and I decided to first chronicle how we met and our story thus far.

I apologize now for the length my blogs may reach...I am an author and I cannot resist telling our love story to all the detail words can allow.

It all began that August day 2006. I was running late to my 11:00 class simply because parking sucked, but that's not the important stuff... I walked in to class and the only person I really noticed was the beautiful young woman in the middle of the first row...right behind the teacher's desk. The seat beside her was open and I was automatically drawn to sit there. I felt that I could relate to her and that there was a connection there even though I had yet to introduce myself. The teacher was paying no mind to me or so I thought so I introduced myself...Well...Sorta...I said Hey. She was taken aback by my forwardness; however, she replied a cool and collected "Hi..." I introduced myself and she in return introduced herself, but she looked to the teacher as though begging for some relief from the crazy girl sitting next to her.

As class continued, my thoughts kept straying from the lecture to the girl sitting beside me. I wanted to know everything about her and I just had to be close. I was secretly excited when the professor informed us the seats we were in at that moment was our "assigned seats" at least so he could know who we were. Over the first week or so, Heather and I made small talk and slowly began branching into actual conversation. We'd walk out of class together and continue our conversation a little, but nothing really major (at least for our friendship status) until the storm. It wasn't a big storm or even really bad...Just rain, wind, thunder and lightning...you know the normal...

Except...

I extended an offer to drive her to her apartment across campus. She accepted. I felt as though she and I were on a date...or something. It felt so surreal... especially because I was beginning to realize that I liked Heather as in...LIKED... I had never actually liked a girl before and I was struggling with the idea of homosexuality. I was raised in a pretty open family, but I never thought that feelings of homosexuality would be something I would be experiencing. I have since accepted who I am, but I'll get to that point. That first drive to her apartment was filled with conversation as our class periods so often were. I extended my offer to include every day of that class and our relationship went truly from acquaintances to friends to best friends in a matter of weeks. Soon we were inseparable. We talked about everything from why the sky was blue and not green to our past to our futures. We talked each other through the drama of being young.

I remember I started to feel more and more comfortable with the idea of me as a homosexual or at least bi and on many occasions shied away from telling her my feelings. I knew she had been with girls before, and that she was trying to get over one, so I figured not now. We held our friendship true till our class ended and I was no longer able to be in her presence everyday. We'd still text and call but eventually we drifted apart by the hurtles of time and space. I knew I still thought about her often wondering where her dreams had taken of her and if by some chance of the heart she too was thinking of me.

After years of silence bearing the hole in my heart, fate would have that she instant messaged me in November 2008. It seemed as though we picked up right where we left off and although we were in separate states (nearly 6 hours apart) we were best friends again. We talked each other out of smoking, bad relationships and stupid mistakes. We shared our joy and happiness, our heartache and wonder. We reminded each other of the glory of happiness and the beauty in just being ourselves. From piercings to hurdles, we overcame everything together, linked by a computer and a phone.

I remember approaching Valentines Day 2009 and dreading the loneliness it brought. Heather and I both decided to dress in all black that day in respect for the singles out there. After work that night, Heather and I were texting per our normal and she asked if she could call. She said she had something she needed to talk about but didn't want it to be as impersonal as a text or instant message. So she called. I could tell she was nervous so I told her whatever it was we'd get through it. She took a deep breath and went into this beautiful speech about how she thought she was falling for someone but they could never be together. She left out all names and genders but I quickly caught on to the fact she was talking about me. At the end of her speech she asked a simple question, "Do you have any idea what I'm talking about?" My response? "Yea, and just to let you know I'm in the same boat. You're not alone."

With that our relationship began to grow from best friends into something more. March 13th, we decided to allow ourselves to be natural. Whether that would bring us together or tear us apart we didn't know at the time. We've had our share of trials and tribulations but at the end of the day the one thing keeping us going was each other. Long distance was hard, trying, and taxing at times, but working for our dreams kept us going. After 5 1/2 months, I finally jumped at the chance to see her and be with her for just a simple weekend. That weekend was amazing as were the memories we made. I realized while I was cuddling with Heather for the first time ever that this is what home felt like. I had no worries, no other thought, just her and I together. We decided then and there that we were going to try and move together.

We researched our decision and decided Savannah was a good place for the both of us. We set out to make Savannah our home. In early December I moved down and began the search for an apartment and truly a place to call our home. Heather happened across an add for our apartment and things just fell into place. I was able to welcome Heather into our apartment late December and we've made it our home ever since.

We never really considered having kids as a lesbian couple for a couple of reasons, but mainly we didn't think it was fair. Recently, we've had a change of heart. We've decided we want to bring a child into the world and raise her/him to the best of our ability. We want a family, and we have started to enact on building us our own. We've started researching every possibility as thoroughly as possible and hope we can make our family dreams come true. She is my family and I am hers. We are excited about the possibility of making our family expand to include a child.

Well...We're going to bed now.

We will write more later.

Jess