Stressed to the max

So Jess and I are moving this weekend...we will be saying goodbye to our first apartment together. Its sad but its a positive thing. We are moving to Charleston to better our lives. Its kinda a last minute decision but it just seems we are sinking further and further in debt here and we cant seem to get out. So we are going to stay with Jess's parents for a while to get back on our feet and then we will find another place together. The past couple of days have been an emotional hell for me. My grandmother took a turn for the worse, I'm overwhelmed from the move, one of my childhood friend's dad was in a very bad motorcycle accident and is on life support, it just seems like everything is happening so fast and all at once. My family was talking about putting my nanny in a nursing home so Jess and I were prepared to take a month apart for me to go stay with her while she stays with her parents to save up money for a deposit on a house near my nanny, but my dad wont allow that. (He isnt doing to well with the whole me coming out thing) And honestly I wasn't doing well with the whole leaving Jess for a month thing...but I was going to do what I had to do for my family...(especially my nanny!) Jess and I both love nanny so much that we were both willing to make that sacrifice to do this. It was killing us both but we were going to do it. Then my dad says no...just plain and simple no. Which left me feeling so many emotions...relieved, sad, hurt...needless to say I have been crying alot. Poor Jess just kinda hugs me because I think she is at a lose of what to say or do. She is just amazing through all of this though. So we are going on an adventure to Charleston...and it is a P-o-s-i-t-i-v-e thing! No matter how much its going to suck til we get back on our feet we can do it...TOGETHER. Together we can accomplish anything, together our love can beat the evil forces of the world. So we will go to Charleston with our heads held high and be proud that we were strong enough to ask for help.